NOT BEING GOOD AT ANYTHING

I lack everywhere.
A lot of the times I get really frustrated that I haven't found my 'thing'. I can do a lot of things but I'm not amazing at any of them. I can pick up anything if I try but I still haven't found that thing I'm really good at. So I always feel like I just lack, and I'm not good at anything. I'm always mediocre.  MEDIOCRE AT BEST! I should get that written on a shirt or tattooed on my forehead. Yeah Yeah Yeah it's 3 AM and all I can do is sit here and complain about not being good at anything,  booohooo!
This post sucks but I've been thinking about this a lot lately especially with the pressure to pick a career...HA. I'm tired. I think I'll ramble about this later when it's not so late. Maybe my
sentence will be better. Let's be honest Nat they probably won't be.


hi Eddie!

anyways Ta Ta! laters

I'll be back for you post

LIFE AND ALL IT IS

Wow its been a while but I think I want to start blogging again not for anyone really but myself. It's a nice way for me to get all these thoughts in my head out there and maybe someone will come across it and feel the same way. That's always a bonus.

ANYWAYS ONTO, LIFE AND ALL IT IS.

I've been thinking a lot lately about life and what I'm doing here. First I want to start off with more people really need to think about the fact that they are living and existing, THAT IS A REALLY BIG DEAL. Back to me though because everything is about me as usual. Jokes. I don't really have a platform anywhere, i'm not known on any form of social media or on a larger scale as a public icon or figure but I still feel as if I have a great responsibility. No matter what I do if I tweet something, or say something out loud to one person. I have to think about how this is going to affect someone and who else is going to hear or read this. No matter who is paying attention I have responsibility as a human being because I can influence other people with the way I act and think. That is what I am doing here on this earth and I think that is what we are all here for, to teach each other, to lift each other up, to love. I don't think many people realize that they have power, your actions, your words, your mind they hold such a large amount of power not only towards you but towards others as well. Everything is so frustrating to me lately because I've been thinking a lot but I can never really express it in the way that I want to. Just like with this post! I'm frustrated with this post as a whole because it's written awfully. I have so much I want to say but I'm never good at saying it. That is all for now I leave you with my favorite movie quote of all time, "No matter what anybody tells you, words and ideas can change the world"  Dead Poets society (1989)


Press on!

REVIEW, REVIEW, REVIEW: X (multiply)- Ed Sheeran

Ed gives us a really big look into his life, with this album. This album seems to be really personal (amusing all these songs are his own personal stories.) As a whole I really loved the album, might sound a bit biased as I am a big Ed Sheeran fan but  I think this album is really respectable. The album exceeded my expectations and I am blown away by Sheerans work. I do understand why a lot of people will stick with Sheerans first LP + , because this album is a lot different and for some people that will take some getting used to but there's no denying this album is incredible it has so much versatility and depth. He puts everything into his work and I think that is why he has gotten such a positive response. Cant wait to see what he will do next!
here is a track by track review:

One: Very Ed Sheeran not to say that is a negative thing, goes back to his roots. Very emotional heart-felt song.

I'm A mess: This song is really instrumentally and vocally shines .

Sing: The very controversial single. I do say I have to disagree with everyone who thinks this song wasn't fit for a single. It was the perfect song, fitting of the album not as a representation of the whole album musically and lyrically but that the album was going in a different direction from his first album (+). Also very catchy and easy to catch the attention and curiosity of people whether positive or negative; good choice.

Don't: Very raw, also tells a story from begging to end. A very different side of  Sheeran which i think is important people see. Feel like people have a certain  thought when listening to him and this might change that.

Nina: A very reminiscent ed speaking about a relationship and how he needed to put his career first, which i think people will respect.

Photograph: This song blew me away when I first heard it. Personally one of my favorites on the album. Will say it does give me a Taylor Swift vibe; which isn't a bad thing in this case. Think everyone can take a piece of this song and relate to it, important song for the album. I think Ed said once this song would change his career I agree.

Bloodstream: I do admit I wasn't a big fan of this one when I gave the album a fist listen but it's grown on me. Feel as if this song could be 'Drunk's- a song off of  the first album, older cousin.  Theres nothing bad about this song, just falls a bit flat. Not the strongest song, but it falls very well within the album.

Tenerife Sea: Songs shows that sometimes some of the most simple lyrics are the best.

Runaway: Story of an alcoholic dad, and family problems. very interesting song, I think he did a very good job at making the song enjoyable. I don't want to analyze too much I guess because I can relate in a way

The Man: In my opinion one of the most vulnerable tracks on the album.Hitting different topics of relationships, the industry,and substance abuse. Even making what might be a Cobain referenc which I find really interesting. Whole song feels very heavy.

Thinking Out Loud: A calmness after the different things heard from the rest of the album. Also one of my favorites, very intimate song.

Afire love: Super emotional song, that did it and brought me to tears. Track is about Eds grandfather who eventually falls to Alzheimer's. Eventually death bring people together. Love this one.

BONUS TRACKS 
Take It Back: I very much enjoy this song, very fun. I really love all of the clever (in my opinion) references used in this song.

Shirtsleeves: Enjoy the lyrics of this track an awful lot.

Even My Dad Does Sometimes: Tears, song means to much. I've waited for an official audio to this song for years.

-nat.

letting go

I really believe that there's feelings we should hold on to, but I'm going to talk about the ones that we should let go.
There is such a great importance in letting things go, it's  funny actually because it's one of the hardest things to do. As humans, we're always holding on to certain feelings towards something or someone, and we're so afraid of letting them go. I was stuck in a  situation of holding on to feelings of bitterness over something that really didn't even matter anymore. That's what holding on to things does to you; it gives you a feeling, of  'I'm stuck'. I thought about it and not being able to let things go only holds you back. It's not affecting anyone else but you and the way you feel. Whatever it is that you're holding on to ask yourself  "does it truly matter?" and I'm almost sure your answer will be no. So consider letting it go and starting over whether it be with feelings towards yourself or someone else. I guess I'm writing this because I'm proud of myself for being able to let go. It's great that as humans, we always have the ability to let go and start over, so we should take advantage of it. I feel a lot better now. 


breathe easy

"If you like it, it’s not stupid."

I was watching The Spectacular Now, and it came to the scene where Aimee becomes embarrassed over the fact that she likes a comic book, and she calls it 'stupid' Sutter then follows with "If you like it, it's not stupid." This really stood out to me and got me thinking about how a lot of the times we're seriously embarrassed about the things we love and the things that make us happy. We tend to sometimes even bad mouth them because we're too embarrassed or scared about what other people are going to think. We  even go as far as to pretend we aren't associated with these things, and I think that's so wrong of us. If we find solace in something, no one should ever make us feel bad for that -including ourselves-, and we shouldn't allow them to. It's absolutely incredible to find something that makes you happy and brings you comfort, whether it's a book, a band, or a friend. Whatever it is that makes you happy you should embrace. You should bring it to light no matter how ridiculous you think it may be. It's important that we hold on and share the things that make us happy. Realize that they're not stupid and maybe that will  help someone else realize it too.

Don't ever be ashamed of the things you love people are going to try and use them against you but continue to love them continue to let them make u happy

A short list of things that make me happy:

The way I am able to feel things so deeply
When you can wear a sweater and you aren't hot but you can also wear a T shirt and not be cold
My wonderful family
Being me

"if you love it, embrace it"